Not here, not there, not anywhere...

Hi, my name is Meagan Starostic.
ASK ME ANYTHING

Dear… #YouKnowWhoYouAre

Smother my name under soil & dirt
In the earth 
Widen the distance apart
Fuck an apology, I’m not sorry for anything
I’ve been holding back my apathy for far too long
You don’t deserve what you haven’t earned
And your place in my heart has just grown so small

I’d like to think that you’re worth my time
But you embody everything that I hate
Take a good hard look at what you see
I’ve lost all my hope and all my faith
Cause when I barely fuck up you just recoil and weep
What do you want from me? I’m just a kid who got in too deep
My walls are built up high forever bound to be steep
I’ve got a birds eye view of all the secrets you keep

Basically…

“Taking a chance without time spent sitting and laughing about embellished stories, regaling each other with our most embarrassing moments. You’ll chain smoke the night away and I’ll keep talking to the point that most would be annoyed but you never say shut your fucking mouth. I would give anything to say what I think right now. Ask me a question and I’ll do my best to not lie, but if I say what’s truly on my mind… You are the price I’d pay” -Ruiner (Sleepless)

Hmm..

Do I really miss you, or is it just this habitual routine my mind goes through when your not around..